I was reminded in church today of a powerful thing:
Sometimes God needs to do something IN you so that He can do something THROUGH you
This weekend has been one where a reality I knew was present was brought into clear focus. That reality is I have forgotten the importance of taking care of me. What I mean by this is that I am very hardwired as someone who cares for others and as a result can forget to take care of myself. In 2008 I was in that same place and something switched inside of me. I realized that if I am going to continue to be there for others that I need to take care of myself. This is most evident in the area of my health and my weight. Back in 2008 I experienced a reality check when I was in to see an ENT to have a portion of my throat scoped due to my acid reflux. I was concerned I would hear that I need surgery and yet learned there was just inflammation and through losing weight it would subside. I saw the effects of making that simple choice and it was true that losing the weight helped that and so much more.
I have a weight loss journey page I started on Facebook that I used as a means to update people on my journey. I was excited to share my progress that I often updated on a daily basis. There were highs and lows and many things to look back on in the process. I started down a slippery slope close to a year ago now and allowed the stress of life, the lack of focus and resolve at times, to impact my health and life. I regained a fair amount of what I lost and feel like I am back in familiar territory. It is a view I don’t like to see and be part, but it is also one that I know how to rally back from. A journey defined is one that is ongoing and not one that stops for many. That is the case for me and as I get very transparent in this post, I see no other way to push in and through than to go public and to announce I am on project status again. I know what lies ahead won’t be easy, but I need to do it for me so that I can be available for those around me and the new members of this planet I may come in contact with.
I welcome your support along the way and I know all things are possible in trusting in Him…